Yeah, two months and there isn't really that much new in my life. With Christmas around the corner, I haven't even started my Christmas shopping. And how can I? The money I am making is going directly to bills.

Aside from that, I have come to the point in my working career that I never would've thought I would come too. The point where I have had the urge to simply show up one day flag my boss and the owner the bird and tell them to shove it, and walk out. (Probably in a more colorful way, but nonetheless). Never in the last decade of gainful employment have I ever felt so inclined to walk out on a job than I have now. There is several reasons for this desire and all of which I will not bring up.

All I know is that come the new year I will be looking for a new job, and once I do find it, I am giving me two weeks notice. Starting now is pretty much pointless, that is why I intend to start looking in the new year.

I have also felt inclined to write something like what ~Moaki has done about cliche things in anime and manga for a journal. Using parts from her list as well. That's about it.

Only moments ago, I started to think of my past, I don't mean what happened a year ago or even two years ago. I was thinking about my childhood friends of when I was a 9 or 10, my friends, my best friends... and now, I want to get back in touch with them. I want to know how they are doing, what they are doing, I want to know if they have children of their own and enjoying what they are doing. It's been years since I thought of my friends from where I used to live, where I originally lived before my parents decided to move away to Ottawa(the first time). Originally I stayed in contact with my friends through the mail, but over the years, we drifted away.

Have you ever thought about that? I lived in a small comunity of maybe two thousand people, probably less than that, and all the while when I had a car, I might've only visited three times. I never drove by the school I used to attend (I heard it was closed down some time ago). I never thought to look them up, to see if they still lived in the area (not likely, but it would've been a good oppertunity).

It's kinda depressing when one thinks of things from so long ago. People whom you were so close... I feel that it was my fault... and that they probably don't even remember me. That is probably what would hurt most of all... I hope if I find them over the internet that they might, by the slightest of chances, will remember me... I can hope, right?

Well, I haven't really seen anything pretaining from that stupid commercial pretaining to the end of the world. Actually, I've been watching more TV off and on recently and I haven't seen it of late. I have no idea - nor do I really care - what happened to it. But, I am glad it was removed, the last thing needed is more hysteria added to a situation that has not occured and possibly won't occure yet.

There really isn't much new going on. I have recently started working on of my older stories that I dropped because I am not so good at science fiction - and yes - for those who watch me. You will find an updated version of that old piece of work, with many mod's and corrections and even two new characters that I somehow just came up with. You don't need to read it though, there are only bits and pieces I truly like in it.

Helped my friends and roommate move (out). Boy, that is something I don't ever want to do again. It was a real chore to move two people (from two different locations) into one place. And there were only a few of us who were actually able to do all the heavy lifting and moving.

And I may (or may not) be getting a seasonal job at a local gaming store. A gamer's dream come true, when it comes to playing videogames! I have to meet with the district manager and maybe, if I am lucky, I will get it. If not, well, I guess I stick with the kitchen work for a little while longer.

The only issue I have for working for this company, cause I going to be actually be talking and selling the videogames to people, I can't drop the "F-Bomb" (F*#$, etc, etc, etc) whenever I please. That would be bad when I am in a conversation with a client and I accidently say that. Haha. I tend to swear a lot when I am working in a kitchen, because I don't have to deal with guests or patrons or anything like that. But, being a representative of a company and actually having to deal with people... guess I am going to have to work on that. Hah~! And I am pretty psyched about it!

Kay, recently I saw a commercial. It wasn't for a hygiene or fat reducing or even male/female enhancement or even previews for the next movie to hit Hollywood. This commercial was focused on December 21, 2012. The supposed 'end of the world', to say I am Sceptical is an understatement, yes, I am well aware of the end of the world. Or so what various calenders from ancient times predict. I am not scoffing at that, I am scoffing at this commercial, how they'll perform a lottery to pick the ellegable people. That is the most fair and impartial ways of doing things.

This commercial is for the possibly of a massive solar flare striking the earth. Possible. But, in my mind, they should be coming up with a way to protect Earth, the whole of Earth, instead of saving a few thousand people. Plus, in my state of mind, I would sooner think that these people are simply playing on peoples fears to make money, not that if the world ends, that it'll matter. So, what if this solar flare that will reportedly destroy the surface doesn't hit? What if its damage is minimal? Those are my questions pretaining to that scenario.

But, then, other possibilities of the world coming to an end is Meteor X, aka Niburu, hitting the Earth. I don't know about you, but an asteroid the size of Texas hitting Earth, no matter how deep you dig down, there is no way in hell that anybody would survive. For what is it that all things need to live with? Oxygen. And guess what, according to predictions, if Niburu hits, it'll take approximately 10km of the earths crust with it. All atmosphere and oxygen would be gone, so you could have a shelter some fifty kilometres below the earths surface.

Some directors theorize that the earth is simply going to rotate on its axis some 180 degrees, which'll completely screw up the earths crust. Or, this one is especially my favourite! All of human technology is going to rise up and smite us!

Seriously though, if the world is going to end, be by flare, meteor, or shifting of its axis, I would sooner stay on surface then live in a cramped quarters with fifty other people. I require my personal space.

In any case, there is one thing guarenteed, nobody knows exactly what 2012 will bring. And, should it come to the world ending, so be it. However, I cannot abide by anybody playing on the fears of most people just to make a quick bit of money.

Before I even saw the previews for 17 Again, I was thinking about what it would be like if you could go back to when you were 17, with all your memories intact? I would even go beyond that, perhaps to when I was thirteen or twelve.

I had a pretty difficult childhood, nothing like living in "the bad part of town" or being a part of a gang or anything like that. Bullies, name-calling, being picked on or worst ignored, in my later years of high school I just seemed to become devoid of emotion and care and I dropped out for 1/2 a year, of course I went back, can't get anywhere without a high school diploma. But, it was those things that I want to change, take the bullying better, ignore the name calling and just accepting that during high school those people who were my true friends were always by my side.

I am just curious, if you could change anything about your life would you go back and do something different, without affecting our current history, just affecting your own life. Instead of turning right you went straight, instead of dropping out, you stuck with it, instead of taking Art you took Literature or English, things that interested you more. That is where this thought process is going.