Only moments ago, I started to think of my past, I don't mean what happened a year ago or even two years ago. I was thinking about my childhood friends of when I was a 9 or 10, my friends, my best friends... and now, I want to get back in touch with them. I want to know how they are doing, what they are doing, I want to know if they have children of their own and enjoying what they are doing. It's been years since I thought of my friends from where I used to live, where I originally lived before my parents decided to move away to Ottawa(the first time). Originally I stayed in contact with my friends through the mail, but over the years, we drifted away.

Have you ever thought about that? I lived in a small comunity of maybe two thousand people, probably less than that, and all the while when I had a car, I might've only visited three times. I never drove by the school I used to attend (I heard it was closed down some time ago). I never thought to look them up, to see if they still lived in the area (not likely, but it would've been a good oppertunity).

It's kinda depressing when one thinks of things from so long ago. People whom you were so close... I feel that it was my fault... and that they probably don't even remember me. That is probably what would hurt most of all... I hope if I find them over the internet that they might, by the slightest of chances, will remember me... I can hope, right?